Several days ago, I realized something about myself. Something real and significant. Something that was always there but I was completely unable to see it. Something I can see in all the amazing women around me. Each and every one of you is a goddess, capable of so much greatness. I have always been inspired, in awe, and jealous of all of you. And I could never see my own greatness and uniqueness.
But a few days ago, I saw it. It actually felt like a light shining directly through me. It was like lightening directly from the heavens. And just like that, I could finally see it. I am a suburban goddess mom just like all of you. I am usually quite incapable of giving myself credit of any positive kind. So on this day I shouted it from the rooftops, which in this modern technology world is Facebook.
The post read, “Today I feel like a suburban goddess mom and it’s only 9:30. Woke up at 6, made Chris his breakfast and lunch, cuddled with Brayden who woke up early, showered and washed my hair, I am dressed in non workout clothes, woke JoJo, got both kids dressed, fed them breakfast, did JoJo’s hair for a change, played two games with Brayden, got kids to school on time, grocery shopped, went to Starbucks. And I will spend the rest of the day at school talking about Hanukah. Some days are like this this and some days I wear pjs all day and get nothing done. But today I am patting myself on the back!!!”
Posting that and the feedback I received made me think. There is something more to all this. And after much thought and conversation I have decided to start exploring, writing and blogging again. It has been about two years since I stopped blogging. For those of you who have read my previous blog this will be something totally different. It will not be focused on health and wellness while those topics I am sure will come up in my writing. But the real difference is my writing will be my unedited truth. My life is truth now. In a way I could have never dreamed of.
So for now this blog will have a life of its own. The truth and spirit of my life will be my true star. And thus I am unsure about many things such as future topics, how often blogposts will be published, or where all this will go. This is the journey of my real life. But I promise I will write with honesty, gratitude, thoughtfulness, love, humor at myself and it will always be me, a suburban goddess mom.